GOLDEN BIRTHDAY

Call it my “Golden Birthday”, or my “Champagne Birthday” (wish I WAS kidding about that one!), or simply, “My Birthday”, but I think that just like any other day, this 27th birthday of mine simply came by TOO fast. I had thought about making this a very personal post, but that would take too much time that I clearly do not have (as previously mentioned in about 348749240 of my latest posts), so I will make it short. And maybe sweet.

WHAT I HAVE LEARNED AS AN ALMOST 30-SOMETHING:

1. The times I now think about getting closer to 30, still sort of freak me the f**k out, but I am now adjusting to a more open mindset in which I picture the 30s as the new 20s (many thanks to the people over at Vogue). 

2. I am still not ready for a kid, much less the 4 I had planned on since I was basically a babe myself. Don’t ask me where THAT arose from. 

3. I am still selfish, flawed, NOT Adriana Lima (though it might become my birthday wish tonight!), and definitely as stubborn as ever, but I am trying to be more expressive. It’s SO HARD. 

4. I am ecstatic that I have a career that I enjoy getting up for in the mornings (you guys know that unless it’s Disneyland, I am so not a morning person). Oh, and that Daylight Savings Ends this Sunday (YAY).

5. You don’t need a billion people to be your friend, I can count mine with probably one hand. Two if I like them that week. 

6. At the same time, I am trying to not cancel so much on social plans, despite how tired I am or how much I really don’t like that restaurant they picked out. 

7. When I am upset, I usually keep it to myself (key word: USUALLY), and it comes out at the wrong time. Sometimes. Other times it really IS the other person’s fault. 

8. I would have said stopped dyeing my hair so much, but that has decreased (the hair gods still look upon me because I have more hair than ever). 

9. CALL YOUR PARENTS. EVEN IF THEY HATE YOU AT THE MOMENT (looking at myself on this one- yes, through a mirror). 

10. Keep being nice to everyone around you and don’t misjudge others because I’ve been known to get “along” with backstabbers here and there- NOT a nice outcome.

11. Try to channel my creativeness into other things (heads up to my Pinterest account, as 100 new boards will be created soon). 

12. Get healthier.

13. Volunteering is the only way you will ever be completely fulfilled. 

14. Go to as many concerts as you can. In my case, I will make my way back to Britney,   somehow, someway.

15. Travel more. Travel often.

Oh hey look, I did get more personal and made this so much longer than it needed to be. If you read this far, let me know. 

Cheers to another 365 days of screw ups, mistakes, and total f*ck ups. It’s officially official (insert girl with hand up emoji here). xx

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IF I EVER FEEL BETTER

Photos by Henry Young

I have come to the realization (I swear, I must have already started so many posts with this exact phrase) that I have only the time (or even patience) to upload just one outfit a week, which is HORRIBLE. I used to write almost three or four times per week, but then again, I was only in school or I used up some work time to edit (insert purple devil emoji here). Regardless, here is another look, solely based around the fact that this top is a tunic, and although I am tiny, I wasn't THAT short when I thought I could possibly wear it as a dress, so I forcefully wore a pair of faux leather shorts from Forever 21, which I can't get enough of and I sort of keep rubbing in your face time to time again. And the heels? They're really something else. They were actually ordered from my job, and I am perfectly and irresistibly in love (the melodrama begins!) with them. Now, someone invite me to a very prom-y, formal event so I can prance in them once more.  (I had to include a last typical silly shot, since I always look like such a bitch in my photos- THERE, I SAID IT! I admit it, soooo THANKS MOM AND DAD!)

Let's not forget (and why would you? KIDDING!) that my birthday is on Tuesday, and to keep the party goin', we have decided to hit up Napa this weekend. Any recommendations? I'd sure love some! 

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