UPLIFTED

I WAS WEARING:
DRESS | Nordstrom
SHOES | Chiara Ferragni Collection 

There are no right ways to begin this post, but there are plenty of ways to let you all know exactly how I've been feeling lately- and lately, I've been feeling a lot of different things. I am a huge creative soul, and I have so many ideas on how I should express myself, so why not with tons of glitter and stickers? Though it is the holiday season, at times I feel non-festive, too, but this post obviously does not reflect that. There is a lot going through my mind, things I believe should be done different (maybe according to society's standards..or mine, who knows anymore), people I should be closer to, and I over analyze every single little thing, which is becoming quite stressful. I would change so much, move somewhere new, change the course of 100% everything and everyone in my life, go someplace I have never been and start all over. I hate when I have these "creative blocks" because sometimes I don't know how to control certain things or what to say. And maybe none of this makes sense, but I am just typing as these thoughts flow. What I would give in order to wake up one day and not know anyone, drive up the 101 and just cruise through the coast, stopping once in a while to take everything in, photograph it all, and get all that peace and reassurance I so desperately crave. Does it really have to be that hard? I wish that one day I can be as inspirational to someone else as I have my own set of people who motivate and give me that drive to wake up everyday and keep doing what I love. I am tired of thinking that I am not good enough, that I have to change certain parts of me simply because no one can accept me for who I am 100%. But then it hits me: I AM good enough, just been giving myself to the wrong kinds of people. Sort of crazy the theories you can come up with when you sit and think to yourself for a while. Sometimes I think I should completely shut down this blog and deactivate my social media accounts just because I can and don't feel as if it's really taking me places. Other days I think that I have been quite lucky to experience things I have because of it. I can't ever seem to make up my mind, so until I do, I will come back and re-read this post a billion times to keep me running.


xx